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2008年8月 marketing,cheating,pretendingHave been worked and studied almost the whole summer
Never be that hard-working before
And start to understand why people easily get tired of the job
It is hard
How to deal with the relationship with various people around you
How to let the other people to accept you
How to let your boss agree with your idea
Which, i dont really want to have too many enemies...
However, my personality is very difficult to give in these problems
And the worst thing is sometimes even though you fought for it
You got nothing
Is money that important?
So you try to your best to blackmail the others
Whatever in front of the boss or the mates
Some people just hard to communicate
Is that really "a level'' in this world?
Glad i get away for couple of days and relax!
Marketing is it 'cheating''?
Define easily:try your best to get the money out of the customers!
Targeting, promoting, "cheating''--adversiting...
Being an ordinary person
I am struggling with the moral standard...
To be honest, what i can help?
Most people say Ocean is beautiful when it is calm
I think even more attractive when it is wave
I feel the tension when i inside
Actually the water is bloody cold
Pretend not to hear the unfriendly voices
Pretend i still can fight
Pretend everything is fine
...
Direction is not very clear
But i wont give up
Disseration, trouble...
Come on ,lets fight!!!
2008年8月 女人你最大错过你的birthday I feel so sorry
Therefore, i will write something for you,honey
再过一个月 就是我们第一次遇见的时候
当时的我正在衣橱中clean my stuff,你进来后对我说了hello
Pulteney Court PD48成为了我们sweet home
谢谢你对我的包容
我的NY Time
还有半夜我的恐怖笑声
每次我被那些可恶的欧洲同学期负你总是在我那边
好多的点点滴滴 我都把它存在了时光机器里
存期是forever(说得有点俗，你别吐阿）
忽然觉得有好多话要对你说
可是又忽然间说不出来
我想你走的时候 我会哭的
会很想很想你的
好珍惜有个狮子女在我生命中
温柔似水的你一定也会meet your Mr,Right
Happy Birthday, K!
Even though i was not there with you, even though it is too late now
Still i wanna let you know,you are very important in my heart as well!
I am pretty sure you spent a lovely one in a foreign country!
ps:K
希望你一切都好，至于你导师。。。
我们可以让刘大叔把他解决掉。。。
少说他也去了那莫多趟gym haha
你笑了吧，一定是，那就好
 2008年8月 Olympic Games!Go go go!2008年7月 What life means to meNever ask God what kinda life he prepared for you Never tell the one who loves you so much how hard your life is at the moment Time tells me what kinda life I want Frame and wealth : the superficial things which are lots of people want My opinion is :be modest when I have them;be happy when I don’t have them ‘cos there are so many things need me to appreciate… Friendship,bloodship, people who I don’t know,but very kind to me…
Life taught me what kind person I want be
Weather in Cambridge is always changeable
However, it hasn't rain for a long time
Today it is raining
I feel so relaxed in the sitting room
Watching the beautiful garden and drinking my tea
Writing my dairy
What a beautiful life I have!
I had been cynical, locked myself in the room , complained , felt hopeless
I still think I am not good enough
So I need to improve myself
Not only academic stuff but also non-academic stuff
Thanks Erica—my soul mate
You always come when I need you
And take care of me without asking any return
Which it is touching to me
I am so faithful to have you here
Cannot image…
Lots of friends not like England much
I had that feeling before as well
Now I know is that don’t expect the environment suits you
You have to be the one to suit the environment
I never feel pity ‘cos I am Chinese , who is forced to limite various opportanities
Instead I will take advantage of that bit
And stay and live well
I know it is hard
And I don’t really care the results
What I care is the way I try and work hard with dignity
One day, I belive I will like my idiol Natasha Kaplinsky
Who have her own programme
There is stiil a long way to go
I am still trying…
I 2008年5月 cannot say a single word but loveJust finished the exams
I am shocked by the pictures from the internet
cannot help crying
WHY WHY WHYshould God treat a great nation like this......
We've been through a lot
40075 people ''DISAPPEARED''
who are our brothers and sisters
who are our mums,dads,sons ,daughters?
I cannot calm down
And tears cannot help falling down
I am not a promoter of politics
But when i saw these photos from the internet
I couldnt help feeling that the Communist Party was No. 1
We can see how exactly they react to the disaster
From our eyes and hearts
Facts are there...
Our Premier Wen Jiabao
a 66 years old man
went to the most dangerous area and comforted the people
who were suffering from the disaster
He brought tangible benefits to the people
And closely observed what was happening to them.
What an uncommonly high-minded deed!
Being a student
we need to revitalize the economy
And revitalize the Chinese nation
Let's bring about a great rejuvenation of the Chinese nation
Heaven never cuts off a man's means.
Come on China!
God i am begging you:
Please bless China--my motherland!
Please don't punish innocent people!
Please please please stop the disaster...
Earthquake donation: http//www.redcross.org.hk/donation/user_donation.asp?langId=2
please help
And China needs your help!
Thank you so much! 2008年5月 Mum, i love you !"M'' is for the million things she gave me
"O'' means only that she is growing old
"T'' is for the tears she shed to save me
''H'' is for her heart of purest gold
"E'' is for her eyes, with love-lighting shining
''R'' means right, and right she will always be
Put them all together, they spell
"MOTHER''
A world that means the world to me
Howard Johnson(C.1915)
MUM:
PS:I LOVE YOU
JUST WANNA LET YOU KNOW
HOW LUCY I
BECOME YOUR DAUGHTER
And Thanks to GRANDMA&GRANDPA
DIDN'T GIVE UP
WHO BASCIALLY HELPED ME TO GO TO THIS WORLD
SORRY ABOUT ALL THE MISTAKES I'VE BEEN MADE AND THE BAD BEHAVIOUR
I GROW UP NOW
ONCE AGAIN
"Happy Mother's Day''
yaya at Bath
MaydayXD IcecreamNow the weather here is nice Hot but not too hot Within cool wind On campus there are lots bikini girls Lying on the grass Enjoying the lovely sunshine Even though my body figure is not that great Still tempting to do the same thing XD haha
So icecream is the perfect food For the particular season I did And obsess about it The funny thing is i don't like sweet snacks or food Only icecream I couldn't say NO Every bit of it Makes me happy To reduce the pressure To make up the lonely life To feel the special taste I am still happy It is the lucky part Remember the old saying from a film " life is a box of chocolate.'' Coz i don't like chocolate, which gonna be changed like "life is a box of icecream.'' Different favour is different taste Different taste is different feeling Different feeling is different story A whole acaemic year is almost finish Lots memories are flashing in my head friendship, partnership,leadship... Pain, but happy
Second life is my E-marketing coursework I wander maybe everyone wish there is A second life
2008年4月 Side Effects
World, people, animals The whole earth...the entire life...the cyber image Differences?Advantages? Disadvantages? Where is the true part? Difficult?You know... But don't wanna say There is always a door in everyone heart Open or not? This is a question
Life is going on Memories is changing all the time Hard to forget Hard to remember Sounds hard to describe Friends, Family, School Which is part of my life Which is have a stong favour inside I am not sunshine anymore Is that because of the weather Is that because of the unhappy feelings Is that because of something ,which cannot tell Maybe
Messy is the right word to describe right now Direction is not very clear Confusion is the correct word to express at the moment which indicates kinda attitide Water wet --Sun dry However sun and water can combine together Even though which is not the real sun Still hard to let them seperate But it is just nature Which hard to happen in the real life I think i change quite a lot I don't know if i like that kind of change i like or not I never had any skin problems until... That is the rainbow I am the lucky one? Precious experiences always there
2008年4月 Tibet was,is ,will be apart of China forever!!!
Tibet is a place which gives people spirits and hopes Tibet is a zone which belongs to the People Republic of China A great country Which lets Tibet enjoying a high degree of autonomy As everyone knows China is a unified multi-ethnic country All Chinese ethnic groups,large or small,are equal Implement a more lenient childbirth policy with ethnic minorities than with the Han people
Regardless of the population size, the level of economic and social develpment the difference of folkways,customs and religious beliefs each ethnic group is apart of the Chinese nation,having equal rights We oppose ethnic splits and safeguard the unification of the country
Tibetan : We are the descendants of the Yellow Emperor Blood is thicker than water and the feelings of kinship are deep Potala Palace, Drepung Monastery, Dragon King Pool... All these historic spots Prove that since ancient times Tibet is apart of China Never changes
China pursues an independent foreign policy of peace determines its position and policy by judging each case on its own merits We are oppose hegemonism and safeguard world peace If you are idiot and believe what the F***BBC and CNN sa Then i have to congratulate you "Your IQ and EQ are both 0'' If you don't know our country's history and the real policies and regulations Please shut your F***mouth up Being a internatinal student here I am pround of China--the greatest country of the whole bloody world I am pround of being Chinese Always do always will 2008年4月 Vantage Points2008年3月 Easter --Oh yeah!Sometimes i feel it comes so late
When it actually comes
I feel it wasn't true
Always feel don't really grow up that fast
But have to do
Be my own boss
Be my own director
Responsibility, dependability,fidelity
Life is too short
I want my life to be full of laughs and sunshine
Even though there are a lot of painful memories
Thanks to the people who hurt me in the past
That's why now i know what exactly i want
The road is long enough
I will never give up
Not because of loneliness or carelessness
Thanks to my mummy and daddy, who provide me such a good opportunity
Thanks to my Kiki and Erica, who are my best friends in the uni
Because of you guys, i know even someday we are apart
We will still be together in spirit
The last but not the least
Ali,of course
You are such a magic guy
Without you, i think i would still be a silly child
We belong together
Wish all my friends happy Easter!
ps: to the ones who are actually going home during the break, please do bring me lots lots snacks haha 2008年3月 cheeriop Fraeulein WangSei nicht schwermuetig, mein Schatz, alles wird schon gut!
Life is never straight-forward and you never know what's around the corner, but one thing is for sure,
You are so beautiful to me (sung just like Joe Cocker!) and I love you with all my heart and soul.
With that support, I know you'll go far.
Remember, if it weren't for the setbacks, how would we know what it is to be truly happy?
Anon.
2008年2月 Alicia Keys Concert--absolutely superbAt the very early beginning
I went from Victoria Square to the ICE
Believe or not
lots policemen around
20.000-30,000 fans around
Just for her
----Alicia Keys
A talented singer
Use her soul and heart
To open the music door
During the concert
From "Falling'' to "A woman's worth''
So many memories
Her songs inside of my heart
My idol forever
Forever love...
She didn't talk much
The only thing i remember is
"Thank you so much for sharing my music tonight"
Panio,melody,she
...not much to say actually
When she finished her new song"no one''
most people thought it was the end
However,i haven't heard my favourite song--if i aint got you
The big surprise was
She sang it as the last piece and saved it for the special YOU
I couldn't help crying and sang it with her
Almost ended
Fortune,fame,power--some people live for that
Diamond rings, hundred roses,forever young--some people want them
For me:
Absolutely no interests at all
Everything means nothing
Toomuch means nothing at all
Maybe at the moment i suffer a lot
But it worths it ,the precious experience
Scorpius likes to think a lot
I really cannot help it
I cannot control my future
But i can control myself
No matter what happens...
I always can comeover it 2008年2月 nothing much reallyA long time haven't taste my favourite tea
A long time haven't call mum and dad
A long time haven't done the things, which i really want to...
Walk alone from Pulteney to Sainsbury,
Stay alone from morning to afternoon,
Thinking alone from bottom to the top...
Nothing much really
There are various aspect of one person's personality
You don't know ,which doesn't mean it is not exist
Complicated?
Human being is the most advanced animal
Which is hard to find, hard to follow, hard to distinguish
No one can really know who they are, even though sometimes themselves
nothing much really...
We are the one who decide what kinda person we want to be
We are the one who decide what kinda life we want to have
We are the one who decide what kinda friends we want to be with
We are the one,who actually control everyhting about ourselves
nothing much really...
Stereotype is everywhere, but it depends on we believe or not
Discrimination is everywhere, but it depends on we care or not
Just be an artist play the violin along the street
If i like it, then i won 't care there is someone listen to me or not
I am happy to do that, which is enough for me
Nothing much really...
I am the daughter of the Ocean
When i walk to the land ,i become the cat
Actually fairytale never happy in the real world
Maybe sometimes...i haven't heard yet and no experiences as well
I am happy with eveything right now
Even though alone
Still happy,life is too short
I gonna enjoy ...
Nothing much really really...
2008年1月 independent and individual lifeJust finished the exams, felt so released and tired. These days have to fight with the bloody crazy guy who lived opposite to me,'cause he played the pub music very loud at very late night during the exam period,thanks my honey Erica ,Joey and kiki helped me at that particular time!I really dont wanna complain too much now,i am so brave to argue with him, and it is so impressive that i could speak that much dirty words at one time,maybe i do have that potential ability.
Remember i said lots if times to Kiki, when i finish my exams, i will play very loud music in my room to annoy him as well.Today when i actually finished my exam, i wanna do nothing~~I am a nice girl and i dont have low myself to his level.The second term starts next monday, really don't have any break.I seriously lack of sleep , and Xiang said i have been stressed by the exams and start to have spots.They will go,ok!!!And Xiang, you are such the gossip type,just kidding....
I feeel so comfortable right now ,'cos the guys around me makes me feel warm and happy!Erica,i promise i will go to Taibei with you and you means a lot to me ,the most important thing is thank you very much for supporting me in every way,you know ,everything you did for me is so touching.....I am so appreciate that i have a mate like you!!!!Kiki,of course,my sweetheart,i love you as well,so please don't jealous!Hush, it is so difficult to find the balance between you too haha
The tough bit of my personality come back now,so i need to have a break right now and make a plan for the coming term!Everything is lovely! 2008年1月 LostYesterday the strong rain and horrible storm was really scared me, and i kept telling myself i can face it.I have been very bravely walked from campus to flat,eventually i probably been blowing to the the other side of the hill. When i arrived,suddenly it was raining again, and i never saw that kinda rain before,it has been already quite dark outside and the window was hitted by the rain and started to make terrible noise.And i was alone in the flat...suddenly feel sad...suddenly miss...Thanks to my friend called me at that particular time and came over it after the conversation.
I don't like summarise things which happened last year, 'cause some of them are sad memory---be cheated,gossipings,arguing,at that time ,gym was my sweet home.Sometimes brave and direct are not the good things, and only the senstive people get hurt.And i am the oversentitive person--the one got hurt deeply.Forgiveness is not easy,the wound is still bleeding...I tried but didn't work very well.And it turns out that a very bad impression in my head already,anyway i keep telling myself just forget the nonsense things and nonsense people...And i broken my leg during the hot summertime.As everyone knows,in England, there are no air conditions in the room,only heater.That was a tough time and i started to figure out who are my friends,and who are not. Or maybe i just not as important as i thought in their hearts.Anyway my principle is never use others mistakes to punish myself.Thanks to them, i am not as fraglie as before.
Nowadays i have a comfortable life here and the new friends are quite nice as well-so happy about that, especially some of them we kinda as close as a family~`
As the examis coming,wish all my friends pass and we will have an extraordinary year together!
2007年12月 prayingAs Erica said ,if i gonna still stay in my room any longer and i probably become a psycho sooner and later
 So i went out for a quick look, it was really nice around---lots visitors,fortunately a rugby game was on at that time, even though i was in the opposite direction,but still could hear the cheers!!!
Suddenly found that i was one of the few Asians around, people started to look at me and whispering......cos i don't look like the tourists...
Anyway,that is life...So i decide to travel alone by myself during the break---at least change the mood and spirit thought!Don't miss me too much,my dear friends hehe
 2007年12月 cold weather makes me wanna write somethingThese days i have been felt empty and blue,actually i shouldn't been thought like that----especially lots caring friends,dad and mum,why i am not happy?Is that because i have been stuck in my room amd not go out to feel the freshment of CHristmas?Make a cup of my favourite tea, and play the song called" Moon Over My Heart" by David Tao,and i suddenly start to think where is my dear?In reality,it is easy to hear the friends around to complain the love they love don't love them, the one they don't care but love them.I guess, maybe because everything in this world is so contradicated and out-of -logic,that's why it is so amazing and hard to image.Now everyone go home for Christmas, the whole flat only me left.Remember i once said to Kiki,i like to be alone and do my things.At the moment,i do alone,but a little bit sour taste in my hear,particular last night i saw the colorful lights shining in the Christmas tree from the house which was opposite mine,by contrast,i was sitting in front of my bookself and lonely.
And the bad thing of my uni is we will have the exams after holidays,however, i don't have any mood to do the revision right now.I will come over it and start to do what i should do right now.These days, Erica tried her best to tempt me go to France with her after the exam,and i don't know i gonna go with her or not,and i always travel alone, maybe i should make a change and don't overprotect myself.
The funny thing is i do give different impressions of friends, that is to say,something they guessed about me is totually wrong.The conversation as follows:
Fern:what are you plans for the future?
Ocean:Find the one-who love me and i love him as well, then get married.
Fern:That is it?
Ocean:Yup,is there anything else?
Fern:Ooooooooooooooooooooh,you gonna become a desperate housewife
Ocean:So?I don't mind cook for him and do the house stuff as well,You know,i like cooking and eating,hehe
Fern:But you dont like that type girl....
Ocean:Dont judge a book by its cover...
Just girls gossip,anyway,it does make fun of our a little boring campus life.I should stop now and keep hoping tomorrow is another day.Mumy and daddy probably miss me a lot as well,in another words, the bloodship is equal,they can feel how much i miss them and love them from here as well.I gonna stop myself panic toooo much and be active...
 2007年12月 hello,Christmas man is on his wayReally cannot wait to say good bye to the quarter of the term, the Christmas break is arrived.Last few weeks, i have been busy with assignments, seldom write anything.Served, experienced, tasted and growing, there are certainly a big difference culture between Asian and Europe, therefore,i have been really confused in couple of weeks.The way people how to social,how to make friends with,and how to work together is a big question, which i never thought would be that hard.Anyway,at least i tried my best to hepl,so no regrets.I am such a changable cat, now i am seriously changed the way and the kind of people i gonna make friends with, which is a actually good thing to me.I am not that kinda islated before and lonely in the past.
These days, i become really a good customer to Thai restaurant, which cost me a lot ,by contrast,i can make Thai food now.Oh,as mum said,i always ahas a sense of sensibility of eating.Lucky me.Just come back from London, for God sake,it is almost 3 hours driving, which turns out London is bad place not only for parking,but also for driving back.I am so tired right now,gonna go to bed soon.Thanks dad calling and caring about me--that is so touching.Please dont worry a bout me,the only possibility i didn't get in touch with you is i am too busy,as you konw,your daught is tough-mined hehe!
As Christmas is coming,wish every dear friends have a lovely time during the break and i love you all!Please don't puke, i am just that cute and adroable!hehe 2007年12月 Feel hurtMickey told me that she gonna back to China soon,well, congratulates her first for the degree and thanks her for spending a lovely time with me in the past.Just remember the last thing she said to me is:''Ocean, you are too kind.People may just treat you good at one point,but you always return back 10 points,don't let yourself hurt.Remember England is a complicated place for Chinese,who are actually go abroad.You are a nice girl,but don't let others use you.I am not worry about your study,reaaly worry about the relationship between you and your friends.''So far, the girls i met in Bath are all quite nice,except one.
I didn't care about what she thinks about me,but the words she said were really hurtful. I have been open-minded and accept her as a normal friend, even though i really don't like her for the first time.She has been try too hard to get know the details about me,of course,i don't mind to let the people know when i like them,absolutely not the one i dislike.I am just direct as i am, and i cannot bear someone cheated me at the back.Personally speaking, i don't think she is my friend type.Anyway,i already block her in my friends list and feel so realesd now.I never good at social and cannot pretend to like someone in case that i actually don't like.As far as i can see, it is the only unpleasant thing happened on me while i move to a new place.Yup,i will get over it and thank her i will be more careful when i start to make new friends and don't easily trust the people i don't know their past.
This is the grow-up thing, and i have to be strong when i face the wound.Get done the assignment first, there are still lots nice an excellent friends here with me, well, i am still the lucky one. |
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