As Erica said ,if i gonna still stay in my room any longer and i probably become a psycho sooner and later

So i went out for a quick look, it was really nice around---lots visitors,fortunately a rugby game was on at that time, even though i was in the opposite direction,but still could hear the cheers!!!

 

Suddenly found that i was one of the few Asians around, people started to look at me and whispering......cos i don't look like the tourists...

 

Anyway,that is life...So i decide to travel alone by myself during the break---at least change the mood and spirit thought!Don't miss me too much,my dear friends hehe

 

 

These days i have been felt empty and blue,actually i shouldn't been thought like that----especially lots caring friends,dad and mum,why i am not happy?Is that because i have been stuck in my room amd not go out to feel the freshment of CHristmas?Make a cup of my favourite tea, and play the song called" Moon Over My Heart" by David Tao,and i suddenly start to think where is my dear?In reality,it is easy to hear the friends around to complain the love they love don't love them, the one they don't care but love them.I guess, maybe because everything in this world is so contradicated and out-of -logic,that's why it is so amazing and hard to image.Now everyone go home for Christmas, the whole flat only me left.Remember i once said to Kiki,i like to be alone and do my things.At the moment,i do alone,but a little bit sour taste in my hear,particular last night i saw the colorful lights shining in the Christmas tree from the house which was opposite mine,by contrast,i was sitting in front of my bookself and lonely.

 

And the bad thing of my uni is we will have the exams after holidays,however, i don't have any mood to do the revision right now.I will come over it and start to do what i should do right now.These days, Erica tried her best to tempt me go to France with her after the exam,and i don't know i gonna go with her or not,and i always travel alone, maybe i should make a change and don't overprotect myself.

 

The funny thing is i do give  different  impressions of friends, that is to say,something they guessed about me is totually wrong.The conversation as follows:

 

Fern:what are you plans for the future?

Ocean:Find the one-who love me and i love him as well, then get married.

Fern:That is it?

Ocean:Yup,is there anything else?

Fern:Ooooooooooooooooooooh,you gonna become a desperate housewife

Ocean:So?I don't mind cook for him and do the house stuff as well,You know,i like cooking and eating,hehe

Fern:But you dont like that type girl....

Ocean:Dont judge a book by its cover...

 

Just girls gossip,anyway,it does make fun of our a little boring campus life.I should stop now and keep hoping tomorrow is another day.Mumy and daddy probably miss me a lot as well,in another words, the bloodship is equal,they can feel how much i miss them and love them from here as well.I gonna stop myself panic toooo much and be active...

 

I am a cutty Scorpio...maybe sometimes likes to say a lot crab hehe

 

Really cannot wait to say good bye to the quarter of the term, the Christmas break is arrived.Last few weeks, i have been busy with assignments, seldom write anything.Served, experienced, tasted and growing, there are certainly a big difference culture between Asian and Europe, therefore,i have been really confused in couple of weeks.The way people how to social,how to make friends with,and how to work together is a big question, which i never thought would be that hard.Anyway,at least i tried my best to hepl,so no regrets.I am such a changable cat, now i am seriously changed the way and the kind of people i gonna make friends with, which is a actually good thing to me.I am not that kinda islated before and lonely in the past.

 

These days, i become really a good customer to Thai restaurant, which cost me a lot ,by contrast,i can make Thai food now.Oh,as mum said,i always ahas a sense of sensibility of eating.Lucky me.Just come back from London, for God sake,it is almost 3 hours driving, which turns out London is bad place not only for parking,but also for driving back.I am so tired right now,gonna go to bed soon.Thanks dad calling and caring about me--that is so touching.Please dont worry a bout me,the only possibility i didn't get in touch with you is i am too busy,as you konw,your daught is tough-mined hehe!

 

As Christmas is coming,wish every dear friends have a lovely time during the break and i love you all!Please don't puke, i am just that cute and adroable!hehe

Mickey told me that she gonna back to China soon,well, congratulates her first for the degree and thanks her for spending a lovely time with me in the past.Just remember the last thing she said to me is:''Ocean, you are too kind.People may just treat you good at one point,but you always return back 10 points,don't let yourself hurt.Remember England is a complicated place for Chinese,who are actually go abroad.You are a nice girl,but don't let others use you.I am not worry about your study,reaaly worry about the relationship between you and your friends.''So far, the girls i met in Bath are all quite nice,except one.

 

I didn't care about what she thinks about me,but the words she said were really hurtful. I have been open-minded and accept her as a normal friend, even though i really don't like her for the first time.She has been try too hard to get know the details about me,of course,i don't mind to let the people know when i like them,absolutely not the one i dislike.I am just direct as i am, and i cannot bear someone cheated me at the back.Personally speaking, i don't think she is my friend type.Anyway,i already block her in my friends list and feel so realesd now.I never good at social and cannot pretend to like someone in case that i actually don't like.As far as i can see, it is the only unpleasant thing happened on me while i move to a new place.Yup,i will get over it and thank her i will be more careful when i start to make new friends and don't easily trust the people i don't know their past.

 

This is the grow-up thing, and i have to be strong when i face the wound.Get done the assignment first, there are still lots nice an excellent friends here with me, well, i am still the lucky one.